vulnerability

what do you regret

what do you regret

“Is there anything you regret? Anything I should know about ahead of time, so, maybe I can avoid the regret?”

This question was harder to answer. I sat across from her and then my eyes opened. I woke from the dreamlike state and stared at the ceiling. Remembering the dream I had- telling my younger self what to expect in the next 10 years. Answering her first question, "Are You Married Yet?"

How would I answer this question to my younger self walking into her 20’s? I wondered if I did regret anything.

be gentle with yourself

be gentle with yourself

I sat in my driveway with the phone on speaker, needing my hands to dry my cheeks. I think she could tell the tears streaming down my face were drowning my words, making it difficult for me to speak. But she had hit the nail on the head. This woman had been in my life for years and she knew me well. She is gifted in discernment and kind in practice. She authoritatively said to me:

“Be gentle with yourself.”

That’s when the dam of tears broke, there had already been a stream of salty drops, but the dam broke.

That's what I want

That's what I want

We all crave to be this hyped up word, vulnerable. Maybe we don’t all want it because it is scary, kind of like dangling yourself over an edge wondering if something or someone will catch you. But deep down there is something within us that in intrigued and enticed by the notion of allowing who we truly are to be seen.

Why does is still feel like there is a void of genuineness while we are seemingly pursuing vulnerability?

What does it really look like to be vulnerable?